Can't resist

I'm getting excited when I saw him online, always. But, I the one who getting mad when I do not have any strength to approached him. Always playing in my head a question whether I need to message him or not. In my heart actually, I really want to greet him. I want to ask him, "hye, how are you?" or "everything going well?" or "how about your day?" and the greatest words I want to say to him is, "Hye, I miss you. so much". It's taken very long time to make a decision until then, he offline. Upset. For me, moving toward him is the greatest things and I had been realized that it is the bloody hard things to do. Not easy as I dream or imagine about. 


I know the cat is pretty cute, same like you


Sometimes I wonder, do he miss me as I am? I ever wonder also why I keep thinking about him. No matter how hard I tried pushed him away, he always comes in my mind. Sometimes in my dreams, almost every night. He's soul hunting me really like a ghost or zombies (I hate zombies very much.. haha...) 


See,, how special he is until I setting online just for him...

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