mata melihat, hati bicara

I'm getting excited when I saw him online, always. But, I the one who getting mad when I do not have any strength to approached him. Always playing in my head a question whether I need to message him or not. In my heart actually, I really want to greet him. I want to ask him, "hye, how are you?" or "everything going well?" or "how about your day?" and the greatest words I want to say to him is, "Hye, I miss you. so much". It's taken very long time to make a decision until then, he offline. Upset. For me, moving toward him is the greatest things and I had been realized that it is the bloody hard things to do. Not easy as I dream or imagine about.  I know the cat is pretty cute, same like you Sometimes I wonder, do he miss me as I am? I ever wonder also why I keep thinking about him. No matter how hard I tried pushed him away, he always comes in my mind. Sometimes in my dreams, almost every night. He's soul hunting me r...

Satu kebiasaan jika manusia itu mempunyai rasa benci. Benci aku kepada sesetengah sikap kaum Adam sebenarnya. Kerana bila kaum Hawa mula berbicara cuba menjauhi dosa, kaum Adam pula berkata dia memerlukan cinta. Dan bila cik Hawa hendak menerima dengan hati terbuka, encik Adam pula mengabaikannya. Tertanya-tanya, yang mana satu kehendak hati sebenarnya? Peluang yang diberi tidak diambil sepenuh hati, Bila niat di hati mahu menjauhi, Tertagih-tagih pula cinta yang tak pernah dihargai selama ini, Hoii, ape ni?? Dihantui dosa-dosa dulu, Bila akal tidak pernah terletak sebagai nombor satu, Akhlak dan agama pula pergi dan berlalu, Hilang sudah hala tuju kepada Yang Satu, Itulah jiwa yang tak pernah puas atas sesuatu. Separated always better when non halal feelings involved... But, sometimes I can't cope it...

I heard the sound of wave for the first time we met, Moments created like writing musical notes on the staff, Even we are from the different beats, rhythm and songs, Bonding created like we form an Acapella, When the time and fate make us apart, Saying goodbye doesn't mean forever goodbye, I will miss you all until we meet again, Now — I think of you, when I listen the song, that we sang together. 08/02/2015 9.03 am PG

Bila ada yang cuba mendekati,             Anda tarik diri dan cuba menjauhi. Bila ada yang cuba mengambil hati,             Anda tidak pula menghargai. Bila ada yang mula cuba mempercayai,             Anda pula hanya mendiamkan diri. Bila orang betul-betul menjauhi,             Anda pula mula rasa disakiti. Pada pandangan peribadi,             Mana satu sebenarnya bicara hati?